No Where Land

About two weeks has passed, and I have finally arrived to no where land. I am still who I am..."beautiful, kind, smart, vibrant and loving" - in quotes. All I noticed from these past weeks is a few acquaintances who have expressed interests in many forms. Guys are overly caring and offer me all sorts of things girls would want. They consistently pay for meals and even attempt flirtatious speech. I have not let myself fall into the sea yet however. I just recognize the fish in it from above. There are a couple of ways i make it into the sea. I wonder if I will be willing to dive in and when, or if someone would take the honor and push me in from behind, or I somehow get tricked or lured... People can continue to tell me that they have passionate dreams about me or fantasize, but I refuse to succumb to nonsense. I want reality. Although I may be naive, I'm not that vulnerable. I recognize that my time is precious at this point and should not deal with any temporary business. But I have to say, if there is a time I maybe vulnerable, it will have to be those lonely Tuesday nights. After a few weeks, I'm somewhat relieved that although i may be desired by most, i am subject to none. Seductive? Maybe... Welcome to No Where Land, Joy Sy.