Wednesday, August 20, 2008

No Expectations.

It never fails - my heart races every time I see that pitch black screen with words typed in bold white font "The Human Condition" - will there be a new entry today? Will it be about me? My pulse quickens - then stops. I guess not today =( ...Maybe tomorrow?

Wasted time and disappointing afternoons have caused me to limit my silly tendencies to check his site to just one a week. Has it worked? Not yet. A few years ago when I was let down by one of my friends, my dad told me "Rely on yourself. Don't rely on anyone else." It was an egotistical, stubborn, "I don't need anyone's help" type of statement I thought. However, the more disappointmens came the more it made sense...

For myself, I'll set my expectations reasonably high. For others, I'll keep reminding myself "Joy...no expectations." I received my first bunch of flowers (roses in fact) in the office this year. They were pink, simple, beautiful and best of all...unexpected. Last week, I opened the fridgerator door and a bag with a note that said "Surprise! Daw Miu just for you!" made me laugh! Today I was asked to lay my hands out with my eyes shut. I was given a gift that brought me joy - P90X (a rigorous exercise and diet regimen) on a memory stick! I literally jumped off my seat from excitement! =)

Being without expectations is when we learn to appreciate.

The happiest smiles, laughs, feelings, and moments that come...are the ones you don't expect. I don't wonder why children are so happy.