Easily built, easily broken?

Do you believe that with 'love and relationships' what's easily built will be as easily broken?

Is she afraid that you'll fall out of love just as fast and just as hard as when you fell in love?

OR maybe...
She's afraid that you'll fall in love just as fast and just as hard with someone else?

Ever been told to take it slowwwwwer? And do you believe there is a benefit to holding your love back and waiting?

My Chocolate Epiphany.

Tears of confusion and sadness rolled down my eyes unexpectedly. You'd think I'd be over this by now. It's been a year.

For some strange reason I end up crying during my subway rides. I'm glad I'm not the only one since I've seen people do the same. Others do even stranger things. The shower is another popular place where my tears just naturally roll down. The sound of heavy water droplets trigger the release of the emotions trapped within.

On my train ride...
I remembered the day I came home from work and found a purple Cala Lily shaped chocolate on a stick laying on top of my fluffed pillow. With a smile I slowly picked it up and gently stared at it for a good half a minute. I wondered who it was that thought of me that day...who it was that thought I was special...

I bet it was dad! He's sweet like that. So I excitedly walked downstairs to thank him. With a confused look he smirked and said that it wasn't from him.

Was it my sister? I thought...yeah! We like to leave each other surprises now and then, but not usually on our pillows. I walked over but nope, it wasn't her either. Dazed and perplexed I decided to call a friend who would be next person that would leave me such a sweet present. But it wasn't him.

To this day, it hurts me, it confuses me, it angers me...that the person I didn't think of was my boyfriend at the time of 11 years. It's no one's fault, it just became my own chocolate epiphany.

To be inspired...

Earlier this summer an interest of mine told me I inspired him to write and share his world of plentiful stories. I was his muse. I felt confused because I have not done anything consciously to evoke such positive insight. Though I was his muse, I was not willing to take the credit he gave me for inspiring him.

Then, I met a guy recently whose body is incredibly lean. During our "blind date" he talked about strictly eating steamed food as part of his ways of keeping in shape. I've always been an active person, but never could I imagine myself changing my dietary habits. My food intake consisted of pasta with carbonara sauce, fried food and lots and lots of chips. Just after exchanging a few emails with him, I've now been inspired to start something new...

Today I attended an informative session held by one of NYC's top rated personal trainers / instructors, L. Cozick. In only a half an hour she made me want to join her women's triathlon team: Team Lipstick and Team Chapstick. I think she said she was 40+ but she looks absolutely amazing and has the energy of her whole class combined. She inspires me...Now I'm not as confused.

It is now clear to me that the energy of just loving yourself and being yourself and doing the things that you are passionate about resonate through others. It is what makes people drawn to you. These people end up craving and loving your presence - be it rain or shine.

Loyalty is something you give...

I'd like to attribute my jealous spurts to having the middle-child syndrome. So when I was asked to to list three things I'm looking for in my next relationship the one thing I had to note was a loyal person.

My only ex-bf was 100% loyal yet I still had my jealous tendencies. Though deep down in my heart I trusted him. Maybe it was because he was such a 'nice guy' I felt he paid more attention to people other than me? Ironically that was one of the reasons I was attracted to him in the first place - everyone said he is 'such a nice guy.'

My father and I occasionally have love and life chats over food. Loyalty is like trust he told me this weekend. It is affected by uncountable factors and is based on the individual. I understood and learned that loyalty, like trust is not something you get becuase you ask for it, but rather something you give.

Expectations reduce joy.

This yogi agrees with me and I agree with this yogi.

Expectations reduce joy: http://theyoginme.blogspot.com/2008/06/expectations-reduce-joy.html

It's not what you say, but how you say it.

How many times have you heard yourself say:
I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way.

Many times we speak before we think - but also, we think about what we're going to say instead of how we're going to say it.  The words we choose are important but a tone of voice is critical and also universal.

We are in a big melting pot.  We see and observe people communicate to each other with all sorts of emotions.  Though we don't always understand what is being said, we can always observe the emotion that is being relayed through their voice.  We can hear confusion, excitement, anger, disrespect and the sorts...all without having to know the words that were spoken.